lost . really lost

u know what? i feel really lost and damn moody.


i hate this kind of feeling. a transition stage, from a student to employee. i hate it. it totally sucks. i hate to face reality. but i know i have to . well, i am NO longer a student. no longer a carefree one. now is all about work, work and work. i hate growing up when responsibilities keep building up on your shoulders. will i still find the space to breathe one day? i don't know. i really hate these kind of feelings. after the USA trip, i think i am different. i lost that kind of power and will to succeed. it seems that the meishan now prefers simplicity, prefers life to be happy go lucky.


i can't even sleep now. my brain is damaged from all the intensive thinking of what my life should be. i predict that a brain tumor is growing soon. my head is getting heavier and heavier. so next time if you see me, dun say i put on weight. is most prob my brain tumor cuz it is going to weigh 5kg. trust me. it is going to grow tt big one day!


okay. i will feeling better now. after complaining, skyping and msning. i love my friends la!